Thank you Nia! I needed to read your response tonight. It's been a rough couple of days. I've been staring down the barrel at another flashback and when they hit everything goes down until I can climb back up from the depths. And I'm always changed when I do return. It's like I have to relearn who I am. Emerging just now to your response has really helped . I'll read it several times over before I sleep. Thank you again.