In the wake of the reversal of Roe V. Wade, one wonders if this isn’t the beginning of the end of joy — Dear regular readers, this will be a departure. I have many feelings about the Supreme Court’s reversal of Roe V. Wade but need some time to formulate those into a coherent argument. However, my husband, quite unexpectedly, wrote a piece on the topic that I felt needed a venue. He…

It can happen that guilty people accidentally confess through the language they use. It’s like one part of themselves is telling on the other. — Part three of a multi-part series on breaking down my mother’s letter to me regarding my public accusations. For the full letter (which is part two), I link to that below. Trigger warning, content contains a reference to child sexual abuse. In August of 2018 devoted dad, Chris Watts murdered…

In processing my mother’s letter I realize just how much of a non-person I am to her and it means I may be in grave danger. — This is part two in a multi-part series on breaking down the meaning of my narcissistic psychopathic mother’s letter to me regarding my public accusations of abuse. The full letter is in the body of this piece. Trigger warning, content includes a discussion of sexual abuse and assault.

This is the first in a multi-part breakdown of my mother’s letter to me after months of no contact. Through these articles, I’m processing recovered memories of her narcissistic psychopathic abuse. — Update: This is part one of a three-parter. If you want to see my mother’s email in full, skip to the bottom for the link. Trigger warning, this will cover child sexual abuse and assault. When I was young my mother told me that no one was looking at me…

I loved my mother with blinding love. I loved my mother so much it hurt. I just didn’t realize how much it was hurting me until it was almost too late. Trigger warning, content contains passing reference to sexual assault and abuse. Psychopaths are rare. Current estimates put the percentage…

We have this idea that forgiving someone sets us free, but when we forgive someone before we truly understand the impact of what they’ve done, we could be hurting ourselves and our children. We live in a society where we must pay bills and provide for others and health and healing can seem selfish and indulgent to many. But if it does, then I’d challenge them to take a look at how they’ve abandoned their own inner child wounds. In this country, we…

Compassion from strangers is providing a foundation of care I never received. I’ve been applying for full-time employment, and it’s hard and I’m tired and I just can’t handle putting myself out there every day and never hearing back. I mean, I get it. No one likes rejection and that’s just part of the job hunt, so I need to toughen up. …

Trigger warning: content contains discussion of child sexual abuse and assault. No matter how complex or tightly woven the lies, they always unravel when confronted with the truth. I don’t have my outside filter on today. You’re getting this straight from inside the gates. I’m not going to keep you out. You know it all. And I want to thank you, dear reader, for not flinching, not…

Trigger warning: Content contains details of sexual assault. The pieces of the puzzle come together and as they do, so do I. I’m healing. I just finished an EMDR session and I’m feeling tenuously better. Last week I had a dentist's appointment. It was a routine screening and exam. I hadn’t seen the dentist in three years. I’d developed a kind of phobia around…